We are all destined to find that one person that will make us happy for the rest of our lives. Be there for us through the hardest of times, be there for us through all the happiest moments of our life. But do you go together like macaroni and cheese? Its hard to decide just how well your lover and you go together but I believe that macaroni and cheese comes pretty close. What better way to describe your feelings for the other person than saying "We go together like macaroni and cheese."
Its the ultimate of ultimates...the most powerful of powerfuls. Nothing will ever amount to you saying that to your partner. And hearing their answer. If its not what you want to hear, they aren't the right one for you.

There is someone out there for you, that doesn't care if you laugh like a pig, eat like a pig or look like a pig. They will love you for who you are and if they can't understand your meaning when you tell them "we go together like macaroni and cheese" then they aren't right for you and there is still that person out there waiting for you to grace them. Waiting for you like the cheese waits for the macaroni.

Do YOU believe that there is such a person out there for you?

About 4 weeks ago (one month or around that era) I went to a Heaven or Hell 16th Birthday Party - I went as a devil of course and I somehow managed to look like this;

I went with my awesome friend - Caitlin. She looked great didn't she?? It makes me smile just to see her looking so gorgeous hehehe.
Anyways, at said Heaven or Hell party, I met a guy there that looked something like this;

His name is Jordan. And we sober snogged at the party and, ever since that day I haven't been able to get him out of my mind. He's just been there continuously in my mind and I haven't been able to get him out of it.
The day after the party, however, a little box popped up on my msn announcing this person wanted to add me - it was him. However, he didn't add me. He got the same box popping up saying I wanted to add him. We believe, to this day, that someone above wanted us to become a match because I instantly fell in love with him and a week later I had a Guitar Hero party and at the party, he came and we clicked so well. Here is a photo;

It was great. Two days later, we were dating. We have now been dating for something around 3 weeks and I love him to bits and pieces. He is just, the one for me and I love him ever so much. And my parents like him too! This is a great thing since they never liked any of my other boyfriends. Jordan is just something so special =]

So, my love life is going great. It really is.

And so is my other life.

And so is my online life!

I'm so sorry but I have to cut this short because my dad is ranting for me to get off.

Ciao! xx

For instance, Madonna's children, in order for them to rebel - they are going to have to be Straight A students that do everything perfectly. People expect them to be stuff-ups, just like their mum because well, lets face it, what hasn't Madonna done? And so, her children are going to have to PROVE they won't follow in their mother's footsteps. The key word being prove - every adolescent is trying to prove something desperately to themselves and others.

As you go through your life, your teenage years will be your roughest and wildest - you are trying to find your true self. Trying to find that identity that best suits you and will be with you for the rest of your life. Its a pretty daunting thought that those few acne-ridden years of your life actually shape up who you are going to be for the rest of it. Oh boy! Better not stuff it up, right??

Wrong. Making mistakes and learning from them helps you decipher right from wrong and, ultimately, leads you to become a better/worse person. Although, there are some times when you should listen to your parents, making your own mistakes is usually the best (and most-used) path most teenagers amble along. Not always the wisest but hey - thats a mistake in itself right? We'll all learn from it whether it be immediately or a couple of years down the track when you're a famous lawyer, or a bum sitting in a curb with a cigarette in hand and beer in the other.

When I rebel from my parents, its because I don't want them to try and control me. For me, I'm rebelling against control. I want to be in control of my life - how DARE you attempt to control my life - I'm old enough to do it myself! Ha, I know that later in my life I will laugh at my stupidity but while I'm here and now, with my hormones raging, I know that I will always rebel from the control and discipline my parents try and exercise over me. NEVER will I give in.

What do you/did you rebel against as a teenager?

Anyway, I had my first debate ever last night. We lost and I was terrible. I spoke too fast, got my words jumbled and LOST half of my palm cards...I practically died up there on stage. *cries* I need a cookie...anyone willing to gimme one??

Right now I'm sitting here on the floor next to Matt (my boyfriend) and hes talking about trippin out and trying LSD...which had been the source of our most recent problems. He wants to try LSD, I don't want him to and then there is a conspiracy that myself and my best guy friend like each other - or so says Matt and my best guy friend (Blake)'s girlfriend...they have been talking behind myself and Blake's back and have come to the conclusion that we are having a LOVE AFFAIR.!! Paranoia much?!?

I only hope Matt decides to listen to me...=[ I really don't want him to get hurt.

Yesterday I bashed this guy up from Beaudesert High School because he called me that nasty word for a woman's vagina (it starts with a "c") So I bashed the shit out of him..all my pent up anger from Blake's girlfriend spreading shit just got vented onto this boy. He deserved it.

Well, I suppose I better leave you now. Kudos! xx

She apparently became obsessed with a "suicidal cult emo band" aka My Chemical Romance 2 weeks before she committed suicide.

Ok, I'm not here to nitpick about the actual article, I'm here to nitpick about them blaming music yet AGAIN for a suicide. Just because the girl listens to the music, doesn't mean its the influence. If you consider MCR a suicidal cult, then wtf do you consider Parkway Drive???? O_O ZOMG I BELONG TO A SUICIDE CULT!!! =O

=| I personally don't like MCR but it is in NO WAY the reason behind this girl's death. No music is. Especially not MCR which just so happens to be a very anti-suicidal band. I listen to music way more hardcore than MCR but I don't feel like killing myself...anymore. And when I did attempt suicide, it was not because of music. It was because of the heartless bitches at school. Music is what kept me together.

Do NOT target music as the blame for your own stupid fault. The girl apparently told her parents she felt like killing herself an hour before she was found hanging from her bunk bed by a tie. Yes...music definitely did it. Her parents should have taken her seriously (mine didn't either...) and not left her alone but no. "My daughter was a model student....she would never do anything like this. She just cut her wrists so she could be initiated into the emo club" Yep...so totally normal. You guys are idiots. Not saying its completely your own fault but don't blame the music!!! Accept your own mistake.

Music helps people very muchly. It doesn't matter if it has hardcore lyrics or outrageous head banging music - it still helps people rather than make them feel worse.

Get your facts straight retards.

Mothers Day is tomorrow. I bought my mum the special edition Kylie Minogue Album that has a DVD included...she better like it. I searched high and low for the bloody thing. What have you guys gotten for your mum? I reckon its really funny how some people in the world have Mothers Day TODAY and we have it tomorrow...time zones are strange lol. I'm in the future...America is in the past and erm....god knows who is in the present!!

I have a new song obsession...You Had Me At Hello by A Day to Remember. It is the beautifulest song in the entire world. Download it if you ever get the chance!! You won't be sorry =] Its soooo sweet and I have it on repeat right now lol.

Kudos to you all!! xx

Oh, and everyone, I have a boyfriend! His name is Matt and he is a total cute/sweetie. We started going out on Thursday hahaha - I hope we last a long time 'cos I really like him. He smokes pot but he promised he wouldn't smoke it around me - which I'm really grateful of. He asks me the other day:

"Does me smokin' pot mean I can't kiss you?? I swear pot tastes good!"

LOLOLOLOLOL. Sooo cute =p

So guys, tell me what you reckon of the new layout - I need some criticism!

Yep. That was me - I was the idiot that accidentally told the teacher she had a crater face, choked on my rock lolly in shock and then tried to apologise with a solemn face while laughing at the look on her face.

Ok, shall I tell you from the very beginning what happened?

Her name is Miss Smith and she is always rather nasty to me. I haven't done anything to her before this and she has just been a right bitch. But I swears I didn't mean to say this! It just...came out. *hides from karma*

Today, me and a group of friends were sitting down at lunch time talking about skin complexions and she came over to chat to us. She then went on to say this:

"Trust me, ya hit 20 and ya skin just goes to the dogs. Back in high school I had the prettiest complexion, beautiful skin and not a pimple in sight!"

And I, being a stupid dimwit and it just popping out, said:

"And now look at it."

I then, realising what I had just said, drew in a gasp and swallowed my rock lolly I was sucking on which then proceeded to stick in my throat, causing me to choke. I was choking and gagging and coughing and heaving and turning red while she just stared at me with this look on her face that just told I was really going to feel the consequences when the report cards came out. Perhaps a D for Drama is in order? *gulp and glances at mum*

So I was lying there dying, choking, turning red, laughing, attempting to apologise and be serious all at the same time and all she said was...

"You're a bitch" and walked off.

....Ooops?

There is this one memory that I remember that holds no real importance. I was at the beach and I was with my cousin, Suz, and we were eating ice cream cones while sitting on a bench. Me and Suz were close back then. Now, we are nearly enemies the way we talk to each other. Its sad, I miss those times and I sometimes wonder whether my mind brings up those memories to remind me that mine and my cousin's relationship wasn't always so distanced and cold. It had a warm and fuzzy feel to it that I thought only existed in those soppy movies I'm oh-so infatuated with.

Maybe, just maybe, that day when I was sitting eating ice cream cones with my cousin, at the time I didn't feel as happy as what the memory looks like but right now, with my cousin and I being so distanced, it feels like I was blissfully happy. When I was just a 5 year old that was worried about whether or not to be a cat or a teacher when I grew up. I miss those days.

Have you ever had those feelings where, at the time you didn't feel happy/sad but upon looking back and remembering, you do feel insanely happy or depressingly sad?

*sigh* Guys....ever since the overdose, I have been having these odd moods. I just...can't have one mood. I'm either really happy and angry, or really angry and happy. Or something like that. Its really strange. Matters at home aren't helping at all - me 'nd mum have been fighting like you WOULD NOT BELIEVE! We fight over the littlest things and my sister doesn't help the matter at all. Its making me so angry, so incredibly angry....

This entry is not supposed to be funny. I'm being incredibly serious. I have this massive head ache all the time and I feel like crying and OMFG I feel like I want to kill something. What is going on with me? Nothing in my life is going right...

But honestly..I can't take babysitting the little brat anymore. I have a new welt on my forehead where her cute, harmless little flying pan found its way catapulting into my face. God I love those moments I have with her. They're real red letter days for me.

I had a date the other day. Mhm, with none other than a boy called Luke. Yupp, it was alright. He's cute and smart but a lil bit clumsy which just adds to his adorableness but I decided it just wouldn't work. Not while that other person is in town anyway. Literally. Don't ya just hate it when your feelings for other people get in the way for your feelings for OTHER people? Yep, me too.

Okay, so my new school is pretty cool. Better than I thought....and what my uniform led me to believe. Below is a snap of my Sports Uniform...you don't wanna see my Formal TRUST MEE.

Yep. Isaac just told me I " looked adorable in it " Which made me grin because thats the last thought I would have of how I looked in it. I referred to him of myself looking as though I had elephantitis in it. Not dissing any people out there with that terrible disease - I donated to you guys!!!

So *deep breath* that is what has been goin' down lately. Oh, and Matt (aka sleepyted ) is comin' to town if any of you bright people happen to link this phrasing with the ABOVE little paragraph of my feelings for other people...*HINT HINT*

Yup, thats gonna be interesting considering neither of us *cough* has feelings for each other and neither of use will probably wanna meet *cough* even though we only live ten minutes from each other where he is staying....Yup, interesting alright.

Kudos!! xx

Well, tomorrow my life starts out afresh. I went to Flagstone today and 'terminated my student records' as well as said a final goodbye to everyone. Or - to the people that matter. It was hard, I cried. Most of them I'll never see again and others, I'll hope to see but never will. *sigh* Everything has changed...for the better right?

What gets me, is what Flagstone calls the dis-enrolment forms. At the top its labelled "STUDENT TERMINATION" Termination??? Geez, I'm not some household pest that needs to be taken care of - unless the school is colder than I originally thought. Ha, now the true colours come out - when I'm leaving! Boy do I feel sorry for the rest of the kids in that school.

Well, I spoke to Maddy and Monique - the two girls I used to call my best friends but now consider to be...ehh. Monique is ok but I still think of Maddy as a slimy manipulator. Even if I did say there were no hard feelings on my behalf *cough* I can lie a little right? I'm sure she's used to it.

I hope this new school is as good as everyone says it is because if I don't like it - I'm in big trouble. Mainly because Mum told me that if I said I didn't like it after enrolling there she'd give me consequences she didn't dare voice. I'm afraid.

Ok, so I have been thinking of adding some more articles and tutorials to the site but quite honestly, I can't be bothered. I'm sure I'll get around to it eventually - until then you're stuck with my incredibly interesting and witty blog in which I write all my profound musings that will keep you fixated for the first sentence and no more. I think the last time I had a profound musing was when I was 5 and asked why the cat made mewing noises when I stood on her tail. Hmm, go figure.

I'm in trouble with Love again. I like this boy, he's new in my life and I'm not sure if he likes me back but we have a lot in common and he's so funny and easy to talk to - when we talk at all. Sometimes our conversations will be one sided (me talking) and others I might say "Hi" and he'll say "Bye" or something. *sigh* I hate boys..lets throw shoes at them.

Not to mention Jess is upset I'm not in any trouble for overdosing...I apparently did it for attention. *blank stare* Yep, I sure did - thats why I told everyone I overdosed!! *rolls eyes* She's just a stupid face. And jealous. She's upset she didn't get sent to a private school and Mum says its because she chose to go to the school she did go to and to stop whinging. Personally, I think its because I'm the only academic talent in the family. PSSH whatever. How conceited of me - don't tell anyone I said that!

So I'm being pushed pushed PUSHED to make a decision and its hard because I really do not know WHAT to choose...this school or that school? The school I am currently at is out of the question Mum says since thats what caused all these issues so *deep sigh* A lot of pressure at the moment.

That being put aside, I fell off the stupid chair last night....yep. SMACK onto the tiles I went. All I did was move to cross my legs and BOOM BAM BABY I was on the floor gazing up at the white ceiling and wondering what the fuck just happened. Oh the joys of getting old office chairs. I hate you.

Kudos! xx

Well, on Thursday 3rd of April, Mum caught me doing something naughty and I was grounded indefinitely....most probably for MONTHS but I was lucky and managed to persuade her. Ehh, not really, I just...nevermind.

On Saturday I babysat my cousin Trinity and came home feeling quite sick and on Sunday I was awake vomiting the whole day after taking some paracetamol so Mum took me hospital and I was in hospital until...the 11th of April...so 5 days. Wow..its so uncomfortable peeing into a cup! Turns out I had suffered severe liver damage and yeah....goodness gracious me huh?

I came home and my computer got moved from my room out into the dining room where I am currently perched precariously on an overbalancing office chair that is threatening to kill me everytime I shift positions. It was nice knowing y'all.

I'm moving schools...probably to a private somewhere and I'm stuck between staying at Flagstone or leaving...I'll miss quite a few people at Flagstone but there are quite a few I won't either. Ehh..what to do??

AND, to top it all off, I had issues with this bloody site and its RIDICULOUS...needs. I have a feeling I have spoilt it..now it has all these demands I cannot afford. Bloody sites and their...spoiltness.

Ehh, oh well. I'll get back on track soon. I hope!